*Mood*: Fedup
*Song*: Way Back Into Love

I noticed i been having fedup mood since 12th June. Its nearly 1 month already and i really can't tolerate this life i been having. . . I don't know what to say when it comes to explaining what kind of shit ass life i been leading. It all comes down to the closest people i have, a crap and piss off family.

Never 1 day am i actually happy much.
Every single day i woke up hoping i never.

I do not feel like i have enough sleep.
I do not feel like i am happy at all.
I do not feel like i have achieve anything.
I am always pissed off.

Why? Nobody cares at all and i don't want anybody to either.

Why do i even continue living when every single fcuk day i am forced to do something i don't wish to. I am forced to do everything somebody else wants me to do. I am forced to be temperamental because somebody else is having a menopause and going through a temperamental life.
Others always force me to do things when they themselves don't accomplish it at all.

Its just unfair, when i have an unfair mother.

*Mood*: Fedup
*Song*: Drew Barrymore & Hugh Grant - Way Back Into Love

A very romantic love story of a composer and lyricist in search of composing a greatest hit song. Their feelings and talents all in the music and finally, they fall in love with each other and start a romance that sinks into the world's ''bread and ideals'' trap.

I recommend this romantic and meaningful song in the movie "music and lyrics". A brilliant and meaningful piece of art that captures me, and i hope it captures you also =)

[Verse 1]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

*Mood*: Fedup
*Song*: Slamdunk OST - Sekaiga owaru made wa

I am sick, i having frequent stomache and i having a shitty running nose and cough.
Why am i still having idiots who piss me off around me, when today is suppose to be a rather happy day.

I don't understand why i always so pissed up at home, why these idiots keep trying to make me feel pissed off. I can't relax simply at home and always give me crappy questions and not giving me ANY peace at all. WHAT SHOULD I EXPECT?

I already have problems with my digestive system, so i simply ask "Mum, please try not to cook red grain rice and let me eat white rice instead. My digestive system is not very good". That should be an obvious solution, but they are not ''clever'' enough to realize that.
What i get is A FED-UP FACE from someone, when i only softly suggested this. Don't give me that face much as you don't want me to GIVE YOU that face also. Its only a suggestion so i can improve my health.

And obviously, my stomache is not feeling good. That "someone" freaking love to cook some what-she-deem-useful-and-good pear sweet bai-mu-er soup. Is it suppose to HELP ME AT ALL? I think ''clever'' people need to use their ass to think.
It only makes me want to go toilet more.

And then, obviously i trying hard to concentrate here.
After 8984589239529385 times of telling her, "Don't ask me i am eating at home or not, IF I DIDN'T SAY NO, then i am eating at home. Always assume i am eating at home.".
IS IT REALLY THAT DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND THIS?
IS IT?
I am really fed-up with people EVERYDAY AT NIGHT AROUND 9-11pm, asking me "Are you eating at home tomorrow?". FUCK YOU, FOR FUCK SAKE, DID YOU EVEN BOTHER TO LISTEN TO WHAT I SAID?
Then why should i bother to listen to what you say, when you dont bother at all?

And so, fuck off and stop pissing me off!

*Mood*: Pissed
*Song*: Exile - Your Eyes Only

I am fed up, i am pissed.
I hate the fcuking @#&%^&#$ ICT, waste my time and injured every part of my body. I felt like i am thrown into pulau tekong once again. Why should i be glad and feel dutiful to serve NS when its so ridiculously unfair that more and more foreigners are coming here without the need to do all this 'duties'?

I am seriously fed up with the Scourge.
No wonder they are Scourge. . . . filthy and dirtied like mud.
Their actions and thoughts just makes me feel disgusted, i can't believe people are even looking forward to their ''ideas'' to improve us, its only ''deproving'' us.

*Mood*: Pissed off by the Scourge
*Song*: Exile - Your Eyes Only

The Scourge, time and again, proved their stupidity in organizing 'suitable' trainings for 'suitable' races. One dead, Two follow, one in Acolyte Military Training @ PT (Pig Trounced) Island and two in our 'friendly' and use-$-to-buy 'holiday resort'.
To be frank, what a Shit Ass Forces do we have. And funny thing is, the training is never really adjusted at all despite this numerous casualties and their numerous perfunctorily replies. What can they, these scourge, answer to those who have wasted years to raise their off-springs?

Coming to the Scourge Healer's Training. . . . the more i think about it, the more stupid it feels. Yeah, learn how to heal people for what? Go to battle mode, you really think they wouldn't kill the healers? Warcraft, time and again, proven that they always attack the healers. . .
Its time for these idiots to wake up isn't it?
And, how stupid it seems when you have 40-80 healer's each carrying a set of equipments to train when you can rotate and switch within themselves. Scourge Asinine Faggots, listen up man, you all just can't understand the facts? Or are you all too blinded by gold and resources that you all just listen to some idiots who are ''leading'' the warcraft world?

Oh my. . . .
what am i talking? Someone will assassinate me if i didnt windwalk fast enough. Watch out for my death but i doubt it will be reported because they will ''cover-up''?
The fog-of-war is proven useful, especially for Scourges who are so blackened and sunken.